Currently Listening Why Should the Fire Die? By Nickel Creek see related

It's hard to believe this xanga is almost a year old.  Alas, I'm retiring it.  I decided not to terminate it because I'd lose a lot of entries that I'd like to go back to one day.  So with the end I leave this one last entry.

I'm not sure of a lot of things.  I don't know what the future holds, what my career might be, or  if I'll even finish colllege.  I don't know if I'll remain a music major or go in a completely different direction.  I'm not sure if I'll be successful or not, and I'm certainly not sure if I'll be good at what I end up doing. 

The problem with me is that I put "I" first too much.  God and His plan for me are my only certainties.  When I look through my own eyes, there's no hope, there's no compassion, there's no love.  Truth is, when I'm not living in Christ, I can be a serious jerk.  Yet when I put on the eyes of eternal perspective and view myself only in the way that God sees me, there is hope and plenty.  I'm a child of God and that is the greatest honor any man or woman could ever receive.  And even not knowing what tomorrow holds, I take hope in my Savior, that His plan is far greater than anything I could ever conceive. 

I'm unworthy. I hope I've never communicated anything more than that, because I am nothing more.  But we don't have to dwell as blemished creatures, we can put mediocrity in the past.  In its stead, we can mount up and soar like the eagles we were created to be.  Don't be afraid to dream and tell God your desires, He might just be leading you to that particular area.  We can't lose our passions, but furthermore, we must never lose our purpose.  Our passion can never be our purpose.  Take joy in suffering for Christ's sake.  Love one another.  These are some of the most important realizations I've had in the past year and I couldn't leave without sharing them.

If anyone ever reads one entry off this journal, I hope it's this one.  I conclude with this verse:

"And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom, teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord. And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him."

-Colossians 3:15-17

hey y'all...

i'm shutting down my xanga tomorrow.  just to give a heads up...

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day and I will talk to you later or maybe through a new xanga in the future? we'll see...

bye!

Currently Listening How Great Is Our God By Passion Worship Band see related

Wow, what a great start of the year! I went to Passion '06 in Nashville.  It was INCREDIBLE!!! I was speechless a lot of the week because God showed me so much.  Beth Moore, John Piper, and Louie Giglio all spoke=amazing!  Also, like 5 different worship leaders led us throughout the week.  Chris Tomlin, David Crowder, and Matt Redman to name a few.  My small family group was awesome, and Shane and Shane was our small group worship leader...wow!  There were over 18,000 of us college students roaming through the streets of Nashville at any given time. It was amazing, and even though I might have to drop Jan Term, I have no regrets!

"Whatever you do, in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord." -Colossians 3:16?

Currently Watching The Muppet Christmas Carol see related

What a wonderful beautiful day it is!!! we picked up pecans for a little over an hour and made around 50 $ when selling them.  My dad always says there like little pieces of money lying all over the ground. 

$2,800...that's the estimate to fix my car.  sad day...but it's ok because I just found this really cool statement one of my friends made...

"I mean, come on, Christianity is actually amazing and cool and hard, but astounding when it comes down to it. And it's the truth. "

Pretty profound if you ask me...oh and everyone needs to read Isaiah 50-53...those chapters are pretty amazing. Peace out homies, i'm gonna go shopping b/c I got some awesome gift certificates for Christmas...oh and the song went great!  Happy New Year everybody!!!

Currently Listening Christmas Eve and Other Stories By Trans-Siberian Orchestra see related

Wow it's Christmas Eve!!! Now my pic is very appropriate.  I apologize for my lack of commentage on your xangas, our home computer is still on dial up and I just don't have enough patience to put up with it haha.

Well, thorough update in one paragraph-  I'm singing in church tomorrow accapella and with no microphone!!! AAAAHHH!!!! Dad kind of asked Brother Brad without my consent and i'm grateful for the opportunity, but it's SO much pressure!!! Last night, mac got his Christmas present...a new great dane puppy! she is pretty much an angel of God, or so mac thought, because he wanted to name her "angelo del Dio." We kind of shot that down and and suggested (miss) Lucy, as in Narnia!!! haha, cheesy but she's really great.  God's timing is amazing, b/c we never thought we could find a puppy exactly 6 weeks old to get on the eve of Christmas Eve.  She became the most expensive dog on the way home because Dad and Grady hit a deer on the way home...in guess who's beloved car...MINE!  So sad i loved that car but I think it'll be fixed well.  SO GLAD grady and dad and mary were okay!  The poor dear deer was hurtin,' though.  Some of the older guys last night at our annual Maddox Christmas party left with a gun to put it out of its suffering but they never found it.  

Christmas is so wonderfuL!!!  I'm sick and probably won't do all that hot tomorrow mornin' so send a Christmas prayer my way! peace and joy yo-

><>Murph out